Saturday, January 26, 2013

My First Date

I still remember the day I met her.
DAY 1
Saw her in SAC ( I fell to her within a single sight) and in the next moment itself she pulled my glances.., I decided to talk. I grabbed a feedback paper from rakesh and waited for her to ask me the paper.
she: uh..can you give me the feedback paper.?
me: oh yes! ( I filled the paper and gave it to her)
she: tear the coupon and keep it with you .
me: uh.. why?
she: you would get a lucky gift
me: based on?
she: uh..based on some random thing..
me: oh okay :)
(she left us and went away to collect remaining papers...all my looks followed her)
After a while she sat in front of a Apple mac book listening to songs and talking to her friend..though my eyes are staring at her..
She's wearing a chocolate coloured top, jeans.. Her hair style is simple, just a pony tail. Her fingers are short and smooth :) likely to touch
5 minutes later..... suddenly she looked at me " oh my godd!! my heart beat increased terribly..."
few minutes later again and again....she noticed me looking at her. so, I felt tensed and we all left the place..
DAY 2
Next  day I looked for her all over the campus but can't find her.
In the evening me and rakhee sat in SAC and waiting for prithvi to come. As I called him and started walking outside I saw her coming into SAC along with her friends.
 She was wearing a light green top and a blue jeans and same pony tail. As she saw me she started coming towards me, I felt tensed and cut the call. She just gave me a pamphlet and went to SAC.
 Apparently I followed her and took her pics  until she took a seat. Me along with my friends sat next to her.
ROBO WARS started and all the people in the auditorium started shouting, clapping and cheering up the teams except me. I started looking at her and she seemed like she know it. She asked her friend who is sitting right next to her as if I  was looking at her or not.
(time passed but I didn't deviate my looks from her actions)
She started reading a novel named MARY HIGGINGS CLARK. After a while she left the auditorium. I felt like going out and talk to her but screwed that idea.
DAY 3
Night in KV grounds as I'm looking for her I saw her again, she was reading day 4 news feed on notice board and I too started reading it. After a while she turned around to buy an ice-cream and I stood back to her deciding to talk or not. She bought a cup of ice-cream and took a few steps forward.
( pulling out all my courage and screwing my shyness I talked to her again)
me: you were in project X right :) ??
she: yeahh...,
me: I'm prudv and he's prudv too..
( and she revealed the thing I'm waiting for i.e., her name "BHARGAVI" and she's studying Humanities and Sciences 1st year in iit-M and she's a resident of chennai. For next 5 minutes I talked all the random stuff about  my nativity and my college....and also talked about that project X for which she was a volunteer and blaah blaah blaah......still she was standing there and me having no idea what to talk, I controlled my enthusiasm and  said good bye!)
( I like to call her as Bhaagi)
DAY 4
The only way to describe this day was 'Depressing'. I didn't meet her. Actually we were out of campus. I felt like missing her.
DAY 5
As we all enjoyed a lot last night and felt tired, we got up at 12:00pm. Immediately after waking up we got ready and went to CLT.(me hoping to meet "Bhaagi")
Though it didn't take too much time, I found her, finally in a class room.
She was about to come out so I waited for her.

( I was racking my head to come up with the ideas for her, I thought of a walk with her, a coffee especially in CCD. I think it's just because I had crush on her o:) is that it??
Is it just coz I had crush on her i'm following her?
I don't know!! 
She came out with her friends and started walking towards another block, I followed her.
Mean while I called prithvi and asked  him to come. After his arrival we decided to talk to her.
me: hi Bhargavi!
she: heyy... prithvi and prudv right?
me: yeah..where  were you since morning?
she: with my friends( pointing out her friends)
(she was wearing a green top and a pink legging....,,... a pony tail as usual..  damn she's pretty cute:) )
me: Are you coming to CHOREO NIGHT or SUNBURN tonight?
she: nope..
me: why?? :(
she: uh.. actually I came with my friends and I need to be home tonight.
me: ohh okay! so, where are you going now?
she: I'll be back in 2 minutes, are you participating in this sudoku event?
me: yeah...
she: okay I'll be back
me: ok
Event started and she came back in 10 minutes, but there's no space in the class. The volunteers sent her to room no. 303
I can't stay in our room any more so I went to room no. 303 along  with rakhee....
volunteer: already half an hour time's up..
me: no problem
volunteer: ohk come in
I took the question paper and sat on the bench beside Bhargavi.
Rakhee left the class after sometime.
I don't even have a pen to attempt the event, but I just sat there looking at her.
After the event has been completed I decided to talk to her. 
5 minutes later 
me: Are you going to SAC?
she: No, I'm going to CLT, the theater over there. I'm gonna meet my friends there. :/
me: okay bye.( reluctantly)
As she told that she's not gonna come to anyone of the two events, I attended both the events.
CHOREO NIGHT was pretty average, but SUNBURN was at its peaks.
I tapped my feet according to the music played by DJ for the first time.
we kept on dancing for almost 3 hours.
(tomorrow is the last day for me in iit-m, I decided to meet her for the last time and and make it memorable. she's fascinating me day by day)
DAY 6
Next morning soon after opening my eyes I thought to meet Bhargavi..
that was the only goal of the day
We started too late coz of my lazy pals.
I explored every nook and cranny of  SAC and CLT blocks to find her.
I can't find her for a long time, but at last I found her in NXG ROCKSTAR show..( i felt like having an app in my cell phone to find her location.)
I saw her from right exit of the theater. 
" we should reach the left exit of the theater" I said to prithvi.
As we reached the left exit we started searching for a seat near to Bhargavi.
(she was wearing a purple colored top and a pink legging..."purple" her favourite color)
we were about to sit, but she left the hall..
Obviously we followed her until she reached a room where SPELL-B contest was going on.
she participated in that event and we did.
( perhaps I liked her because I have a crush on her??)
She sat in the last but one bench and we sat in second bench. As the event was going on I looked at her very often.
Once the time's up I went out and waited for her. I felt very nervous because this is the last day for me in iit-m and from tomorrow i can't meet her. This brought me down to the earth.
Finally I decided to ask her for a coffee and I was firm on my decision.
Few minutes later she came out of the room and waited for her friend.
(my foot steps started walking towards her and my mind ran out of words.)
me: Hi Bhargavi ( Bhaagi <3)
prithvi: Hie
she: Hie
me: I'm waiting here to talk to you
she: oh, did u participate in spell-b?
me: uh.., yes I did, but don't ask me about the result okay!?
she: haha ok okay.
me: we are leaving iit-m today and you are the only girl i know here. so, just thought to have a chat with you..
she: oh, that's okay.
me: i'm searching for you since morning buddy
she: hmmm (she gave a fake smile)
me: can we have a coffee together in CCD(cafe coffee day)? ( I emphasized the word CCD)
she: uh... one of my friends is waiting for me in SAC  so I wanna meet her.
prithvi: Please don't say no! plss
she: okay, I'll come.
( at that instant I was the happiest person over there, I felt like my trip to iit-m has acquired some worth now even I didn't get a single certificate in any of the events I've participated)
she asked her friend who accompanied her in SPELL-B to come but she  refused to  come. (  now I felt even more happier  as I could get more private time to spend with bhaagi)
me: okay let's go.
I started walking with her slowly and i wanna walk even more slower because I never want an end to our walk together. As we are walking
(this wind is humming,the whole world is singing...OMG why this mad heart is dancing like the way it happens in films, it is happening in real)
me:soo...what are your hobbies? interests?
she: uh..like I read books a lot.:)
prithvi: even he reads a lot (pointing me..he started boasting me infront of her)
she : oh good.
me : so, how many books you read till now?
she: uh..like a thousand...
( oh my god thousand novels! me and prithvi looked at each other faces. I  just read 12 novels and i feel like I read a lot)
we just shared our hobbies, likes, dislikes, bio-data etc. The thing is I want to keep her talking and to create a concrete bond between us.

I just loved the way she used to talk to me. It's just 'fascinating'
each and every thing about her is fascinating me.

I don't wanna give her a chance to get bored in my company. So I was busy in keeping her busy talking.

After getting in to CCD we found an empty table and took our seats.
I'm sitting adjacent to her and I loved that situation. ( can I call it as my first date with an iitian girl ? though it was my first date with a girl. O_o )
For the first twenty minutes I didn't order anything to eat, so that we can spend more time together.
we just discussed about our studies, college, ragging and all the useless/usefull shit that a teenage girl and boy could do.
She explained me the way how she got into iit-m and how she got ragged by her seniors in college. She told that she got 6th rank in her entrance test and I gave a high five on that.:)
Talking about movies is the simple way to mingle in the topic..
"Do you watch movies?" I said.
"yeah...off course, I watch them a lot"
who's your favorite hero in Tamil?" 
"Surya!!" we both screamed at a time.
( our tastes are similar here and even in career point of view our ideas are similar to each other's.)
 "Do you know any one of telugu heroes? Do you watch telugu movies?" I asked.
"No, I don't watch telugu movies but i do know telugu heroes like RamCharan, Chiranjeevi, Allu Arjun" she said, adjusting her spectacles.
As I asked her to give an order, she just ordered a chocolate crispy cake.
I came to know that she likes vanilla flavor lately, so I bought her a chocolate crispy cake with vanilla Ice cream cuddled and a Chococinno for my self.
she enjoyed eating her cake and i enjoyed her company.
( I can see the chocolate remains on her lips,..)
"Do you like to have something more?" I asked.
"No, not at all I'm done with this cake."
"Are you sure?" I asked once again.
"yeah i'm sure," she replied.
Once we've done with the order we moved towards exit.
She need to be in SAC now to meet someone and yeah she knows that someone. So, I accompanied her.
I was led by the path she took.
we talked, talked and talked all the way.
" I heard that majority of the people in chennai live in slums, Is that right?"  I asked.
"No, what the heck! why do we live in slums?" Bhaagi shouted.
The word "slums" embarrassed her.
"No, not you I said majority of the people," I said in a husky tone.
( I got her pissed?)
"Look at you, you're pretty cute and bit traditional compared to other iitian girls, isn't it?" I said.
" Yeah we are traditional, but we don't live in slums." she said.
" I know," I replied.
This brought a little smile on her face.
All the way long i came to know about her and her family in brief..
She's having an elder sister, her mother is a english teacher in a college and her father is a CA.
Bhaagi was born and brought up in Chennai. Once she visited Hyderabad at the age of 10. Her cousins live in Hyderabad and there is a probability of her to visit Hyderabad once again.
Even she showed some interest in me, to know about me and my childhood.
In the flow I took her blogger id and facebook id and saved in my mobile.
Now we almost reached SAC and my friends rakhee, prithvi came to me. 
I introduced them to her and it's time to say good-bye.
I wanna go with her but I can't.
"okay, what else?" I shrugged.
"okay, bye" she said.
" okay, nice talking to you Bhargavi, buh-bye :) <3," I said.
I shook hands with her and then she left me.
Am I gonna miss her? how much? how much would be too much and how little too little?:)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Resolution


Its true. But don't know how should I prove you. You know what you don't trust me at all.if you keep the phone down then our relation is over...but she disconnected..she asked me to eat some thing study but she was having fun with him.I'm insecure just like a kid.I don't have problem in doing what she expects.are you sure about me..I never get what I want in my life.she abruptly disconnected the phone.just for few days we Were out of relationship and she is talking to her ex. And vijay! He always acted as her wish.used to talk good things about her.during night I was bogged down by the thought was it worth it to waste my time for a girl who switched partner in just a week's time? This was not the end but just beginning.I love you and I have always loved you. For me you are my life.I just wanted to let you know.yesterday I brokeup with a girl and today we are talking all this.don't shout at me. Did u forget that u cursed me? You proposed me? Have you forgotten that even you used Be busy earlier? Can't I be busyone day? What do you want to say that it was your mistake to cal you? Wy are saying like this I just wanted to share with you.I made this all to her and she doesn't even care.I should call her again. Talk to me nicely, you have no right to talk to me like this.but after you said that you are my first priority  don't you think we should be there for each other always? She used to see my msgs and calls but never replied.I felt like going back in time when I was in inter and start a fresh, with no girls in my life.she turned out to be rude to ruder. me hoping she would realize one day that what a big mistake she is committing. She never had time for me.she would give excuse that she is with her friends and strangers.she enjoyed the feeling of having some one who is crazy about her but she didn't realize that how much she was hurting me.her phone was waiting she shouted at me can't you understand that I'm on call so you should not call me continuously? My tears
Started to flow and my heart shattered in to zillion pieces.I cried like a newly born baby.the whole night passed but she didn't call me. she's like My crush he lives in her city. I like him much.I wanted to go out with him dance with him.but she could not feel the pain in my voice.she said how could I forget my bff... but I should take her statement in positive manner or other wise.I called her but she's k like I'll talk to you once u r free. She said can't I go out withhim? Did I say anything wrong to her? Next couple of weeks she kept shoutin at me at trivial matters.I tried hard to make her understand that what she Did on that day was wrong.she need to have some priority in her life.she can't simply run after people who talk nicely about her.and I was telling her do's and don'ts. But when I hacked her password and had read everything in Chat history. She started crying and finally accepted her mistake.yaa it was true but u r my first priority too... She ignored me. She crossed all her limits. Pls Pls don't leave me . I acceptmy mistake.you have hurt me a lot and this time I decided to leave you.she kept calling but I was firm on my decision and didn't answer her call.when I checked her new mail.there were conversations like love you da love you too ummah and also erotic one's....I messaged her back that pick up my phone or else I'll cal her mom! She answered my cal.tell me something are you hiding something from me? She told Wy I will hide anything from you This time I'm not giving her any excuse.she is a bitch man, she is a bitch. I wrote msgs and quotes for her whom she forwarded to that bastard.how can she be so desperate.I have brought all her conversations with him. I didn't cheat you you are still my first priority.! It's true I like him and I like you also? I shouted do you have any idea what Are you talking about right now? How could she explain erotic talks with him? It was her lust don't she haveshame? I felt very dirt cheap about her. She has broken my trust.How can you say you love me when you can't even trust me? Pls im requestin for the lasttime if u can't be mine my GF tell me...but she didn't. Great....lies kids lies .... Fucking Shit every lie of her created one big hole on my heart. my tears were unstoppable. i would lose trust on her forever! I left her.